BROKEN
Why is it that everything in my life seems to be broken... and every time I turn around there is something else SUCKING money out of me!!!! I mean CRAP... I saved up all this money before the baby and she is only a week old and we are already starting to SCRAPE by... how in the heck does that happen???
Oh... could it be the DRYER that burnt up the day before she was born?
Or the house that constantly needs something else!!! I mean we had to drain our favorite most comfortable waterbed and trade it in for some POS hard as a rock $150 mattress to make the bedroom look bigger to sell this house.
Or me... who manages to get a freakin infection after every c-section - WTH is with that- and the $200 worth of medicine I have to take to get rid of it!
Or... my broken baby... and her colostomy - whose supplies cost $160 - with crossed fingers that they will last us a whole month- but doubtful considering she is going through one bag per DAY!!!! Dangit woman- those are supposed to stay on 3-5 days - YEAH RIGHT- what freakin world are you living in?
Or... my broken tooth that has finally started to really hurt me- when I got the estimate for that it was $2300...
OR the fact that we can no longer fit our family in our cars... (see Troy I told you) and that I am having to borrow my MIL's minivan to take Ky back and forth to the doctor- which she has 3 appt in the next two weeks and I have TWO and each of THOSE also cost money!!!
I feel like its the never ending list of money sucking issues!
I can handle her being in the NICU... I can handle her surgery, I can handle having and infection that Dr.Y wants to admit me for to try and stop it and now I am living in fear for a week that I am going to end up in the hospital again... I can handle the fact that on the same day that he might admit me- I have a FREAKIN BRIDAL SESSION to shoot... I can handle the fact that our house has only had three lookers and no offers- although I fulled expected it to be sold by now (stupid blind faith I guess!)... I can handle Troy's Cranky ARSE who is a BITE to live with when he has not slept... I can handle having to keep my house clean 24-7 thinking that someone is coming to look at it at any minute... I can even handle the 5 door to door sales people who ring my doorbell everyday and wake my kids up...
BUT I CANNOT HANDLE WORRYING ABOUT MONEY... I can't handle thinking that I am going to go get gas one day and poof- no more money... I can't handle thinking about the thousands of dollars in medical bills that are headed my way- considering I have $500+ already sitting here from BEFORE she was born... God bless my soul- when the NICU bill gets here I will have heart attack!
If you can't tell today is not a good day... I just need to go cry and feel better.
Oh... could it be the DRYER that burnt up the day before she was born?
Or the house that constantly needs something else!!! I mean we had to drain our favorite most comfortable waterbed and trade it in for some POS hard as a rock $150 mattress to make the bedroom look bigger to sell this house.
Or me... who manages to get a freakin infection after every c-section - WTH is with that- and the $200 worth of medicine I have to take to get rid of it!
Or... my broken baby... and her colostomy - whose supplies cost $160 - with crossed fingers that they will last us a whole month- but doubtful considering she is going through one bag per DAY!!!! Dangit woman- those are supposed to stay on 3-5 days - YEAH RIGHT- what freakin world are you living in?
Or... my broken tooth that has finally started to really hurt me- when I got the estimate for that it was $2300...
OR the fact that we can no longer fit our family in our cars... (see Troy I told you) and that I am having to borrow my MIL's minivan to take Ky back and forth to the doctor- which she has 3 appt in the next two weeks and I have TWO and each of THOSE also cost money!!!
I feel like its the never ending list of money sucking issues!
I can handle her being in the NICU... I can handle her surgery, I can handle having and infection that Dr.Y wants to admit me for to try and stop it and now I am living in fear for a week that I am going to end up in the hospital again... I can handle the fact that on the same day that he might admit me- I have a FREAKIN BRIDAL SESSION to shoot... I can handle the fact that our house has only had three lookers and no offers- although I fulled expected it to be sold by now (stupid blind faith I guess!)... I can handle Troy's Cranky ARSE who is a BITE to live with when he has not slept... I can handle having to keep my house clean 24-7 thinking that someone is coming to look at it at any minute... I can even handle the 5 door to door sales people who ring my doorbell everyday and wake my kids up...
BUT I CANNOT HANDLE WORRYING ABOUT MONEY... I can't handle thinking that I am going to go get gas one day and poof- no more money... I can't handle thinking about the thousands of dollars in medical bills that are headed my way- considering I have $500+ already sitting here from BEFORE she was born... God bless my soul- when the NICU bill gets here I will have heart attack!
If you can't tell today is not a good day... I just need to go cry and feel better.
3 Comments:
Awww Amber - Money troubles bite big time....I have no advise, only hugs for what they are worth (and if you try to sell them I understand it can get you jail time, so don't!) - hope that made you smile. :-)
awww Amber...hugs...
i empathize amber... i know exactly what you are going through and like you, i cannot handle worrying about money, which is all i seem to be doing...HUGS!! prayers for you!
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