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Well... in the last 48 hours I feel like I have been to hell and back and to heaven and back and now I am lingering somewhere in the middle of a semi-drugged and hypnotic state. It amazes me that a mother can find within herself the strength of ten men, the patience of job, hope and faith in ways we cannot imagine.

I have now been able to spend several hours holding my perfect princess and with everything that is WRONG in our lives right now- there is so much MORE that is right... she is the most perfect little person I have ever seen... ever finger every toe, every hair on her head reminds me of how LUCKY I am to be blessed with this miracle. And even though we have far to go she is still a miracle!!

Not for one minute have I EVER believed that she would NOT be okay, that anything would be so terribly wrong that it could not be fixed or corrected. I have now vowed to myself that I will not feel SORRY for Kyleigh or me or our situation. This is just something we have to deal with and what doesn't kill us only makes us stronger! And we get stronger everyday!

As much as I hurt- I don't hurt when I am with her... I feel no pain... the world STOPS and it is just she and I - as it has been for so many months now. She curled up on my chest and went to sleep last night and this morning and the nurse commented that it was the happiest she had been in several days.

I am so thankful for doctors who have the wisdom and patience to care for our princess and for the nursing staff and all our family and friends. I told my mom that if it were not for Julie, Kimberly, Cristy, Becca, Laura, Heather and everyone else who has been calling and supporting me- I would be crazy by now!!!

I mean for goodness sake- it was midnight here last night and I was able to talk to Julie when I was having REALLY wimpy minute!! I am sure troy is thankful too to have someone to share the burden of keeping me sane!! Right now it is a rather big task!


Dr.Y kept Posing for us during the section- he cracks me up!!! Some of these were taken at midnight in the NICU so it is realy dark- thus the nice 1600 ISO grain!! You see her chariot there... that is what they use to transport her from Baptist - where she was born- to UK Childrens Hospital where she is now. It was pretty cool- and she was fascinated!!!