Home
Well it took eight hours, but we finally got discharged today and sent home just in time for dinner and nighttime. I must say that the continuous feeding at night will be such a blessing. I still have to get up every 4 hours to "feed" her, but at least it isn't a battle royale like it was in the past. The funny thing is that if she isn't full before the continuous feed starts then she will be restless all night long. Still half slit eyed sleeping, but awake enough to want the passy all night. So amazing that this small amount is what can do it.
I am also thankful we have the NG tube in. Amber and I had said we wanted to get one in and ask about it for about a week or two now. Well, we finally got it and turns out we were right, we needed it. What we were doing before was crazy compared to now.
We have discovered the power of association in infants. Kyleigh associates being held in our arms and being fed with the pain and discomfort she used to feel with how we fed before, the GURD, the screaming, the problems, the pressure, the stress. She remembers all that. Today I fed her while she lied in the bed. At the last one she took 37 ml all on her own. She even latched on three different times. Before she would only take the first latch worth. Then, she would REFUSE to latch anymore and the rest went down the NG tube. Hopefully we can keep that up here until she understands in a week or two that it won't hurt anymore. Sad that we have to earn a newborns trust back to be able to fed her in our arms. Knowing what I know now, seeing what I see now, we should have gotten the NG tube a month ago. Thankfully we have it now and we have stood our ground on mommy only and are winning. Kyleigh can gain weight on mommy alone.
Last night we lost weight. Most people would be disappointed by that. However, I am very happy. At least now we know that 22ml / hour is our sustaining rate. We need to be above that to gain. Below that we lose.
Being home is nice. At least we can deal with our problems here at our home on our terms on our time. Our bed, it is so nice. Good night.
I am also thankful we have the NG tube in. Amber and I had said we wanted to get one in and ask about it for about a week or two now. Well, we finally got it and turns out we were right, we needed it. What we were doing before was crazy compared to now.
We have discovered the power of association in infants. Kyleigh associates being held in our arms and being fed with the pain and discomfort she used to feel with how we fed before, the GURD, the screaming, the problems, the pressure, the stress. She remembers all that. Today I fed her while she lied in the bed. At the last one she took 37 ml all on her own. She even latched on three different times. Before she would only take the first latch worth. Then, she would REFUSE to latch anymore and the rest went down the NG tube. Hopefully we can keep that up here until she understands in a week or two that it won't hurt anymore. Sad that we have to earn a newborns trust back to be able to fed her in our arms. Knowing what I know now, seeing what I see now, we should have gotten the NG tube a month ago. Thankfully we have it now and we have stood our ground on mommy only and are winning. Kyleigh can gain weight on mommy alone.
Last night we lost weight. Most people would be disappointed by that. However, I am very happy. At least now we know that 22ml / hour is our sustaining rate. We need to be above that to gain. Below that we lose.
Being home is nice. At least we can deal with our problems here at our home on our terms on our time. Our bed, it is so nice. Good night.
2 Comments:
So glad you are home and that things have settled down...somewhat! :) Isn't it astonishing when you start assessing weight can on a daily basis. I remember they always told us our 'goal' was one-half to three-quarters of an ounce per day! I remember thinking that was just crazy..until you really sit down and think about it. Sounds like everything is much more under control, try to take it easy, between the feedings, and the laundry, and the dishes, and the business...you get the point! :)
I thank God for two such intelligent and caring parents who have given me the luxury of 3 grandchildren and who know how to take care of them. I hate to think of all the kids that have parents who don't know what to do or who don't "stand up" for what they believe because those are the kids who are gone.
Love you all,
Blu Mom
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