Isn't she lovely?

I have shown these to many of our friends and one's response was "Isn't she lovely? Isn't she magical?" And yes... she is both. It amazes me that this tiny little person can have so much power over an entire throng of people. It amazes me that there can be so many people who genuinely care about her enough to think of us and pray for us everyday.




I made sure to take a picture before she had her tube put in as it may be a while before it comes out. I am glad I did, and I hate that she has to have it in her... but looking at how much better she feels today I am glad we did it. She needed something that we could not physically find a way to give her and I am just glad that someone be it a nurse, doctors, whomever could help us!!

Our children blow me away. Any normal adult would be upset or angry and yet I look at her and she still coos and smiles and talks to us. She is happy to be alive it seems.

I hope when she looks at me - when she stares me in the eyes like she does that I love her more than anything... and that I would do anything for her. I want her to know that I tried my best and that I will continue to do everything I can to make her feel better. I want her to feel totally secure. I want her to know that she is beautiful no matter how many tubes or holes she has in her. If my eyes could tell her a story... they would say that while this has been the most challenging two months of my life I would do it all over again in a heartbeat just to have the opportunity to watch her smile. She truly is magical. But it makes me very afraid that like most magic she may just one day disappear.